Job 7 Panic to death

Job's self pity and sufferings surged to the utmost. E-X-P-L-O-S-I-O-N!!!!
Job 7:16 Job couldn't help shouting that he abhorred his life!
Self pity precedes self destruction, doesn't it? This negativity will spread and run one into helpless state of mind. Being a single mom, negative thinking is the big prevalence and easily drives one into hopelessness and meaninglessness in life. How to turn around? If not for Jesus' model, I will never fight back and dare to dream and to thrive. Taking sufferings and pain as a sort of lesson and training in life and believing God really provides and protects me and my family. This conviction is the capstone of my strike back over the turmoils. Substitute ingratitude with gratitude. Replace self-pity with "the secret walk with God over the trouble water"; how cherished is the memory. MT 25 你這忠心又良善的僕人，你在不多的事上有忠心，我要把許多事派你管理；可以進來享受你主人的快樂． This is the goal of my life - the divine appreciation in that day !

I am loved; I am wanted; I am secured; I am fulfilled; I am thankful.

JOB 3 to 6

Job is really unfortunate and suffers a lot, really a lot. Finally he gives up and starts to grumble, "Why me?" Job 6:11 " WHAT STRENGTH DO I HAVE THAT i SHOULD STILL HOPE? WHAT PROSPECTS, THAT I SHOULD BE PATIENT? DO I HAVE THE STRENGTH OF STONE? IS MY FLESH BRONZE?"
CL has the compassion towards Job. She feels her situation very alike. Self pity inevitably happens when one suffers the loss & failures in life, like Job -- propery, $, families all vanished and gone. Even health deterioriates and gone.... What left? How can I survive & thrive beyond these calamities.
Job 6:24 Here Job cries out," Teach me, & I will be quiet; show me where I have been wrong?"
問天，就像屈原的天問!

Lucy's sharing

One of my BT's spiritual growth tremendously and God bless her a lot. Here comes her in-depth sharing....

各位好，我叫 Lucy ，是港島區已婚人士 Iris的查經班。

我是一個普通女人，結婚14年，有一對子女，大女叫 Elsie　在準青少年班；細仔叫Johnson在Level 4；我哋同埋老爺 (85 歲) 和 奶奶 (80 歲) 一同居住。丈夫是巴士車長，我是一位公務員，任職打字員 (工作剛好十年)。

在2001年尾由 Vivian 帶我返教會，順便介紹一下她 (她是港島區已婚人士組別 Rebecca 的妹妹)，也是我的大嬸，我倆丈夫是兄弟。由於他們的孩子的在星期六經常到我家吃飯和過夜，翌日要帶他們的子女返教會。所以自己和孩子們順理成章一起開始返教會。

在 2002／03 年期間由 May 和 CJ 幫我讀聖經。後來，因為我患病，所以停下來。直至2004年10月由十架女人的 Bonnie和 Iris 重新幫我讀聖經，明白神。我終於明白了我要放下自己的負面的驕傲，將重擔交給神，我才有力量應付其他事情。負面的驕傲 - 以為事事都要自己去承擔、家人的健康、子女學業、丈夫失業、樣樣事情都感到內疚、做得不夠好等。後來，明白神的恩典是夠我用，也夠家人用的。很感繳神，我在2005年4月24日受浸，成為基督徒，成為神的女兒。

在基督徒生命的兩年半裏，能夠做番早幾年沒有做或做不到的事情，還可以做得更多添，例如：在查經班內帶領查經；曾幫手處理兒童主日學的敎材；修讀了公開中文大學5個月的營養學課程；更感激的是有機會跟珠姐 (Lawrence 的媽媽) 讀聖經，結果子。這當然也是神的安排吧，神的確會給我們安排時間表的；一年前，我認識了珠姐並問她取得聯絡電話，我話有空給他電話傾計，但我一直沒有給電話她，直至有一天主日崇拜前，在Food Court 碰到她，她走上前攬住我，話我等你個電話很久，我有好多嘢要同你講呀。於是，我便開始與她珠姐做朋友。有一天，她來找我，要我幫她讀聖經，我當然樂意啦，但心裏又擔心自己的能力和經驗，幸好有神、Bonnie 和一班熱心的姊妹帶領下，能夠幫珠姐明白神，打破以往她的執著，是因為她自己已有順服的心，以一個老人家來說，很多往事會令他們根深蒂固，很難服氣的。但很感激神，她能夠從聖經中明白真理和教導，像小孩的順服，令珠姐感受神愛她，願意被神拯救她的生命。

其實，在珠姐身上，也看到自己的影子，讀過兩次聖經。我相信，一般基督徒在尋求神讀聖經時也會遇上的；只是沒有勇氣去跟別人請教，怕只是自己的問題。我覺得，自己也應學會主動，要虛心地去問別人幫助你，接受意見，才能突破自己和做到榮耀神的事。

正如，我所做和交代的事情，不是為人，是為神，神是我的老板，他會知我能力，知我才能，才給我做能承擔著的事情。

所以，我們不要自高，也不要自卑，因為神一定喜悅我們為衪做的事情。

有一段經文很激勵我的，令我感到很平安、有昐望、也有很大的安全感，很想和大家分享一下：

《哥林多後書》 5：17-19

17. 若有人在基督裏，他就是新造的人，舊事已過，都變成新的。
18. 一切都出於神，他藉着基督使我們與他和好，又將勸人與他和好的職分賜給我們。
19. 這就是神在基督裏叫世人與自己和好，不將他們的過犯歸到他們身上，並且將這和好的道理託付了我們。
多謝各位今天聽我的分享！

Job 2

When all properties, all children gone with the wind & gone with the tragedy, physical sufferings overwhelmed Job (with boils all over the body from the foot to the crown). Even when his wife grumbled and challenged him,"Do you still hold fast your integrity? Curse God and die!" Job replied, "you speak as one of the foolish women speaks. Shall we indeed accept good from God and not accept adversity?" This dialogue threw me something about Job (who is the superb role model to me). Conventionally, we thank God for all blessings given and are apt to ask,"Why me when sufferings come to visit us?" But Job accepted both good and bad from God. Isn't it a wonder-ful insight for an awesome attitude towards intimate relationship like husband-to-wife; or parents-to-children?

If we see things from this perspective, what do we perceive?